Content Note: This post makes reference to domestic abuse in the form of coercive control. If you, or someone you know, is experiencing domestic abuse, there are links to further information and support below
I don’t want them to go. Once the isolation was ending I knew that it meant that they’d be going out again; going to work, seeing other people. I wouldn’t be able to see them all the time anymore – no more popping in to see how they were doing, to surprise them; No more afternoon cuddles. Would they come back if they left? I’ve been working hard to show them how good I’ve been; that I can listen, and I can behave. Not like before. We’re connecting on a whole new level now; we’ve been through the bad times, and now we’re finally at a good place. We have so much time together now; it’s us against the world. I don’t want that to change. If I say I’m sick, it will say they’re sick. They’ll have to work from home. They won’t go out; They’ll stay with me. We’ll stay together. Together, forever. They love me, so why would they ever want to leave? They’ll be happy. We’ll be happy. I’m doing this for us. Aren’t you happy? Don’t you love me? You know things were bad before, why do you want to go back to that? Are you leaving me? How could you leave me? Whether times are good or bad, happy or sad, let’s stay together: That’s how it goes, right? Together, forever. Stay here, with me. I won’t let you go; I won’t let you leave me. Show me your app’s on; show me you love me. Good. I love you.
By Kiersten Hay | @SayHayDay
Information and Support
This fiction was inspired by the play Rattlesnake produced by Open Clasp and Live Theatre which also has an excellent set of resources for supporting victims of domestic abuse.